Daily Diary

Daily Diary #3: The Bridal Party

A friend of mine was recently engaged and has been in the process of planing her wedding obviously…

She just chose her bridesmaids and I wasn’t one of the chosen ones. Which is fine. I understand that you can’t choose all your friends. It’s just gross that things like this form unofficial divisions among friendships. While I thought I was one of the close friends I guess I was wrong. And even though they all say “it’s not that we aren’t close it’s that I’m limited” etc etc, it doesn’t matter because at the end of the day it’s your other friends that made the cut and you didn’t. it’s impossible to spare feelings in these situations and I think it’s ugly.

Maybe I’m seeing it this way because I’m on this side of the spectrum, but I also know I am not the only one that has been in this situation.

So the other day a couple of my best friends got their invitations to be bridesmaids and I commented “OMG that is so cute I’m so jelly!”

One of them said, “We’re all in this together!”

and I responded, “LOL but you’re official!”

and she responded, “Just be patient! How many weddings have you and your boyfriend been in?!”

and I said, “mmmm well he’s been in one and I’ve never been in one”

and I never got a response to that. Why? Im assuming because she thought I would say “Oh I’ve been in like 3” so she can say “See you’ve already been there done that!” But that was not the case.

So now our circle of friends is in the wedding except for me LOL

like how TF am I supposed to feel? I feel nothing but awkward about this whole situation…. How do I lift my spirits into thinking I’m fine and I don’t need these best friends I have others? lol because truth is I don’t. This group of friends is the closest I have to a close group of “Best Friends”.
Until now… Now I just feel like I don’t belong anywhere..

Has anyone that comes across this diary ever been in a situation like this? How did you become okay with everything? I’m having a really hard time figuring it out. Any advice at all would be great help.

Thank you.